Dear First medic year me, welcome to hell: A letter to my pre-medical school self


This is you a year from now, like the ghost of medical school future… So please don’t freak out!
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Congratulations on finishing the first week of medical school without a total breakdown, we won’t count the mini breakdown after the “introduction to chemistry lecture”… And no you still don’t fully understand what a mole is, nor will you ever really!

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Welcome to what is going to be the most intense, insane, enjoyable and life affirming year of your life! You will meet some amazing people, you will get utterly confused and your little heart will flutter, you lose all your confidence and then you will gain it backEnjoy the ride while it lasts!

So back to medical school and actually studying, you will panic, you will not understand 90% of the lectures for the first month and a half (and many more after that), but trust me when I say IT GETS BETTER! Just keep plodding along like you always have done, this year really is a marathon not a sprint. 

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And on the marathon note… No you will not run 5k, you will even learn that running for the bus isn’t really worth it – Your mantra of not running unless being chased, will still firmly be in place

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You will go on some a lot of nights out and subsequently after one of them you will turn up to a dissection session hungover…  And let me tell you now, it doesn’t end well! So please can you just not drink those cheap samba shots. You will thank future me and the toilet later.

Also please don’t fall asleep on the tube on the way to work and then blame it on Captain Morgan and his ship of spiced rum… You will have a horrific day and then your boss will hate you. This is guess is more just general life advice
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Around Christmas things will start making sense and you will pass your first exam very well and it will give you a boost of confidence you desperately needed!


After Christmas the work load will increase, but don’t panic and focus on what you need to know now and do not panic about exam content tested in July. Go to the library and work at your own pace, don’t feel pushed into lectures you don’t want to be in

But please please please ask for help! (more life advice) If you need help ask for it- Which, will be on many occasions, also don’t be scared or worried that other people are working a million miles faster than you at the start, they will help you! And by the end of the year you will be caught up with them!

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Also, it is so easily to get caught in a medical bubble, please make sure to deal with stuff as it happens and not leave it all until the summer, you will break a little and it will just explode, and it will be messy. You know what you’re like, please don’t bottle it all up!
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You will owe James your whole first year, you 2 will become unlikely very good friends and study partners working together 6 days a week, eating many a Sainsbury’s ready meal in the GEP room. Enjoy it, you will realise this is the best way for you to revise and that actually all those notes you wrote were semi-usless.

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So I know a lot of this just sounds like gobble-di-gook… But you will understand what I mean as the year goes on… However, here are 10 top tips to survive this year from me, well you but in the future: 

1. Study consistently, don’t let a topic you don’t understand sit there. Take your time and look over it!

2. You don’t have to follow what everyone else does, if you want to go study alone to understand the kidney… DO IT. Don’t sit in a lecture and get angry because you don’t understand it.

3. Keep your sense of humour… Luckily you don’t lose yours

4. Ask for help– I think this is the most important one. If you are struggling in anything whether it be studying, mentally or just something in your life ask for help, talk to someone… It will make everything so much better!

5. Take any opportunity you have and run with it. You will be offered amazing opportunities, make the most of them!

6. Call your parents and old friends more… you will get lost in this medic bubble and then realise it’s been 4 weeks without speaking to someone outside of your London bubble of medicine

7. Chill out every now and again and enjoy life! It is so hard to get caught up in studying to not enjoy yourself. Go on that date, take a weekend off to hang out with friends (Triple check) or go visit the parentals for some well needed TLC

8. Make a good impressions with staff, it will go a long way and help massively when getting jobs and stuff done!

9. You will look at 18 year olds and go “really was I like this”… well apart from using the penis shaped beer bong in the SU, you were a little… But there will be some good ones in amongst that bunch!

10. Think of witty remarks to use when people question your undergraduate degree. You will always get asked what you did first before medicine being a GEP, when you say disaster management you will get one of 3 responses… learn to embrace the wankers who ask “How is that a real degree”

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But chuck, well done!! You do actually PASS the year, and you exceed your expectations by far getting a 63% average… well done! and please please please remember about the samba shots 





After an insane and incredible 11 months of studying 2 years of medical school in 1… i’ve PASSED!!!

gggoooooooooodddddd Mmmmmmooooorrrnnnnniiinnnngggg…

It’s finally summer, which means medical school for this year is finally over!!


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It’s been 11 months of academic hell having never touched a chemistry book past GCSE and barely a biology book… but overall this year or last few months have mainly consisted of

Spending far too much money that my savings have all but disappeared – most of it on revision food…

And not really having a social life for the best part of 3 months

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I PASSED the graduate medicine year!!


I literally couldn’t believe it!!! i was sitting on a train on to way down to the shire to see the life giver when my results came out. I spent the first 3 hours of the train journey being a total fidget, with the man across from me looking really concerned until I finally managed to get onto the internet to find out my results and call 8 people irritating every one on the train… but finally it has all paid off!

I still don’t understand the basics of chemistry, and I was called a crap medical school by my cousin who asked me about 
mitosis (Telephase.. what??)

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BUT…I’m going to be a 3rd year medical student on the wards!


I’m both scared and nervous at the same time, they are trusting me to deal with actual patients now…
However, I’ve got to start thinking before speaking and actually remember all the information that I’ve had to press into my tiny brain this year, which I have already forgotten after working for a few weeks.

I’d really just hoping my brain has put it all away for ‘safe keeping’

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But now for a Holiday, I am going back to Thailand for a well deserved holiday to see friends, get sun burnt and eat my weight in Thai food… 
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See you after the summer!
Good luck to all of you sitting UKCAT, GAMSAT, getting results and applying..
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The head bones connected to: A. The neck bone, B. The arm bone or C. The Leg bone… Exams, attending “church” and trying not to lose my sanity

Goooooodddddddd mmmmmooooorrrrrnnnnnniiinnnnggg

It is late May and I know I’ve been slacking off but this month has well and truly been a whole different type of insanity…

Slow news day much?

Slow news day much?

I’ve been studying… No literally that is all I’ve been doing with my life the past month! I very much hit that stage of burn out where you start making up words
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Except these words I was making up very easily sounded like bits of anatomy I was meant to know, which to be honest isn’t great the week before the exam. But the first written exams were as vile as they could have been, they easily made the past papers look like a GCSE in media studies…
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Is the head bone attached to:
A. The neck bone
B. The leg bone
C. The arm bone

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We have these wonderful exams in medical school called OSCE’s – don’t ask me what it stands for! But they are essentially practical exams where you do things like take a patient history, take a blood pressure, perform CPR etc… Sounds simple enough ey? But you do 16 of them in one sitting.

All of these patients are actors and when you’re nervous having to do 16 of these stations, it’s very easy to make some basic mistakes…

It was just a mistake.... I swear

It was just a mistake…. I swear

Such as forgetting your own name

And yes that is exactly what I did, I went to introduce myself to the patient and then called myself a boy’s name (FYI I have lady parts fo those who don’t know). And I’m pretty sure the actor spent a good few minutes looking for my non-existent adams apple!

idiotI couldn’t even correct myself! I would looked even worse… Pretty sure I’ll be one of those stories lecturers tell next year before the exam “Just remember kids, know your own name, and gender… It’s not like you’ve had it for years!”

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But you know oh well onwards and upwards and it’s been a                  bank holiday!



And yes It is Tuesday and I am suffering with a hangover that has accumulated over 4 days of drinkingI believe the phrase “hanging like a bitch” is very suitable for the feeling I’m currently sporting. My alcohol tolerance has gone so so far down it’s unreal
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Me and some friends went to this day time club/fancy dress/awesome thing on sunday called “The Church”

It was fantastic! apart from the moment when I told my mother I was going to church on sunday, she was about to call an intervention…

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That holy water burns like a mother trucker

But you know all that drinking comes at a price… Checking my bank balance this morning gave me palpitations 
money I spent this weekend: £150  £174
Amount of units drank: God knows
Told off for crab dancing as a big group down borough high street: Priceless

But all that aside… There is a new season of orange is the new black out next week! There goes 2 days of productive-ness and 2 days of wishing I was Alex Vause’s prison wife…
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Level up: Exams, Birthdays, panic and mislabelling genitalia – They joys of my life being ruled by medicine!

Gggggoooooooooooooooooodddddddd mmmooorrrnnnniiiiinnnngggggg

It’s been a while… It’s been busy so say the least! and also been writing this post for a good 8+ weeks… Sorry!

So let’s go back in time a little because there is a lot to say… But I’ll keep it brief and I think the work of the day at the moment is stress…

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Christmas is out the way (okay a long time ago now), I’ve quit my job (for now), the love handles are back and now I’m severely regretting my decision of eating an entire meter of jaffacakes in the space of a week

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But it’s not all Gloomy.. because…


I PASSED… that’s right… PASSED my first ever proper scary medical school exam
And it was a half decent mark at that



Personally I’ve never been so proud of an academic achievement… Ever since I scraped a C in GCSE Geography 
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And with that I got  hideously drunk and did karaoke…

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It’s safe to say I’m not winning X factor for a while…

This term has hit the ground running, but without having to stand behind a till on a saturday morning looking particularly “ill” I’ve had time to go out on a friday and not be feeling the guilt/anticipation about the  99.9% chance of a horrific hangover I will be sporting the next day…
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But at the moment it’s just about staying afloat and staying on top of the worlds most heavy workload…

If only NEu

If only Neuro was that simple

I’m spending more time in the library than in my own house and it’s not even exam season yet!!!

I know they said Graduate entry was a marathon, but I think they failed to mention the fact that it’s a marathon, without shoes, in the winter while being chased by rabid animals

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If I got a quid for every time a family member has said to me “You look tired, are you okay?” I’d be a lot further away from my over draft that I currently am.

But I’m still enjoying it, which is the main thing -and slowly I’m ruling more and more specialties out… My current most unlikely specialty to ever go into is neurology, too complicated for my liking- so I’ll leave Dr Shepard to that.

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I think also by default I’ve ruled out any specialty to do with the male genitals… On 2 separate occasions I’ve missed labeled the scrotum and/or other parts of it. Leading to over a week of penis jokes… such a joy being in a course 75% male dominated!

But you know medical school isn’t all study and lectures (okay 90% of it is)we actually get a life sometimes, and most recently it’s been the birthday’s of a fair few people including my own desperate attempt to not slip further into my twenties… It fails every year, but I have to try!

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But in true student style we hit the town for a curry and night out… to which at 4am my inner Lawrence Llewelyn Bowen came out of the closet and I decided that quoting Taylor swift and using a roll of sellotape was a safer option to using the left over paint in the cupboard…

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But apart from a few drunken mistakes (you will eventually hear about these at some point), spending far too much time in the library, I really haven’t got much going on – I’m eating healthy, swimming, studying and panicking mostly.

So yeah… I’m pretty much turning into a crazy cat lady, who can go 3 weeks without shaving and spends far to much of my time in the library, so…

Welcome to graduate entry medicine 
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“No I’ve not been kicked out of medical school, It was a facebook rape… NO I haven’t been raped, my facebook was…”

gggggooooooooooooooddddd mmmoooorrrrnnnnnniiiinnnnngggg

Christmas is nearly here!!! And in 42B we are getting into the spirit…

It's mazing what avoidance tactics are used when faced with neurology

It’s amazing what avoidance tactics are used when faced with neurology

But Christmas being nearly here is also a sign of some other not so pleasant things…. Exams…

The stress eating has started

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The Greggs around the corner from my house is a dangerous place… You know it’s getting bad when the lady in there knows all the local students by the appearance of just complete exhaustion and the lack of personal hygiene

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There comes a point where the only social activity outside the house is going for a quick beer or to Tesco to buy more carbs… And even then the guilt sets in and all of a sudden your brain fires a question like…

What’s your 4th cranial nerve?????

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It’s horrible… The only way to suppress it is by drinking!

During one of these outings into the general public I was facebook raped… Otherwise known as fraped, by a wonderful friend of mine…

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My phone had 10% battery and leaving it on the table to go to the toilet was a mistake on my part because I came back and within 10 minutes of sitting down I had 6 messages and 4 texts asking if it was true…

I’m not sure what’s worse… The fact that people believe that I would get kicked out or that I’d be a STRIPPER in East London…

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If anything I’d be a high class escort


I’ve also got myself in a fair few awkward encounters recently, which has involved me making up over 5 excuses to not get naked with someone… Or show them my preparation run of leguary during movember


I also did karaoke… In the hospital’s bar… Singing Call me maybe… And made it home in time to sleep for 5 hours before dragging my clearly hung over arse into work

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I think I’m growing up a little, trying out being professional and using some self-control so I don’t make so much of a complete fool of myself!

But that will be next time… Because I have an exam in approximately 24ish hours and a households worth of carbs to consume in this time…


But if I don’t manage to post anything before then

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The perilous adventure of a hungover medical student: The Rum Chronicals (With added Spice)

ggggggooooooooooooddddddd mmoooorrrrnnnniiiinnnngggg

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I’m well into my 3rd month of being a medical student… On my second folder of lecture notes/important stuff and so far no major disasters apart from possibly this weekend at work…

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For who I’d like to thank Captain Morgans spiced rum for my horrific Saturday (and Sunday) at work…

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I fell asleep on the tube, like full on blacked out asleep and woke up at the end of the metropolitan line, completely dazed and no knowing where I was.

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During this “Special time” I had a very nice man guide me to the correct train back towards my place of work who nicely told me “Have a cup of coffee and not to fall asleep and get lost again”

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Luckily, special moment aside I was only 45 minutes late and even offered to work late/through my lunch break, but due to my boss having literally NO sense of humour, the day got worse

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We have these “Naughty girl” late slips at work and you have to fill in the excuse so only telling the truth like the angel Or in my post alcoholic delusional state  I put down as my reason for being late as:

Captain Morgans spiced Rum…

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It was literally as if I had killed his puppy… The world around me exploded…

Safe to say my notice is handed in and I’ll be leaving by x-mas…

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Well apart from that minor disaster, it’s been a fun month! 

I’ve had to learn so so so so so much, my brain is exploding, I’m forgetting how to spell my name and do simple things. Multitasking is proving difficult… 

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There are only so many Dirty pneumonic I can remember!!

I’m actually learning too much and it’s in Latin too!
I feel like I’ve actually been educated at a school where people don’t set fire to the tree line because they’ve been caught smoking a joint or draw a giant penis on a ceiling of a classroom or the rugby field…
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I actually feel slightly smart… and getting 74% in a recent coursework as bought back my faith in actually passing this year!

Self high five!!

Self high five!!

But if medical school doesn’t work out I have my plan B ready and waiting…

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50 shades of heart disease: I clearly do so much at work…

Here’s just hoping that I can survive these last 6/7 weeks of term until Christmas… Roll on Christmas break! Even if we have a fucking exam on January 3rdBastards!
Well lets give this last month a quick summary…

Amount of times I’ve cursed biochemistry and its complete ability to make any sort of sense to me: 1000’s (Don’t even mention Histology… It’s all too frikin PINK!)

Times I got drunk: 4

Started-on by members of the Netball team: 1

Number of Times I “Shat myself” from being started on my numerous netball girls: 1

Money spent: fuck knows

Amount of times nearly fired from being a retail slave: 2

Number of times I’ve thought holy shit what am I doing here: Daily

ppphhfffff, I need a new job – Anyone know anything about tutoring or freelance in London?

… Until Next time!

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Apparently it’s a lot more complicated than… “The arm bones connected to the hand bone”: Welcome to medical school…

Ggggggoooooodddd mooooorrrrnnnniiiiinnnngggg…


Busy is the word to describe these past 3/4 weeks…

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I’m officially a medical student and my god it feels good (most of the time)!

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However…Being of the non science variety  I’ve ocassionaly often very often been sitting in the lectures and looking at the lecturers like they are speaking parseltongue to me…

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Every few days i get that existential crisis – usually looking at an anatomical image of the arm and then soon after realising that it is in fact a lot more complicated than just

“The arm bone’s connected to the wrist bone… the wrist bone’s connected to the finger bones”


Lying bastards

So onto the fun stuff… Freshers week…

Having done several of these before I thought of myself of a seasoned expert, All of us were up for showing these 18 year olds how to truly drink…

Proud high five

Well… It definitely started off with a bang… My house (Further known as 42B) mates and I sat in our onesies, eating mexican food while watching Great British Bake Off

All you need to do is throw in a few cats and we’d be set for life…

She's my new Nigella

She’s my new Nigella…

In all fairness freshers week did get better and involved 12 hours of drinking on a monday… Quite frankly my memory after about 8pm is foggy but from what I can gather…

A few of us decided in a drunken state of mind (having drank since 3pm) that going to the freshers party was a good idea…

2 boat races/waterfalls

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3 rounds of beer pong


2 hours of ‘twat dancing’ – a true phenomenon… trust me

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When they say hangovers get worse with age they aren’t kidding… The worst bit was that I was still drunk until about 11am and the hangover set in quite nicely in the middle of an anatomy lecture…

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Quite possibly the most horrific hangover in recent times… And we had to do dissection…

Formaldehyde and a hangover aren’t a good combination…


I still havent got used to calling myself a medical student… People ask me what I am doing in London and I have to remember I am actually a medical student and not just pissing about working in retail at the weekends and spending way too much money…

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However… There are certain situations where you should NEVER and i mean NEVER tell people you are a medical student… Trust me I’ve learnt the hard way..

 Most recently in the hairdressers…

After telling the hairdresser I was a medical student she proceeded to tell me about her leaking nipple/pussy abscess on her breast… Which then turned into the all the client (mostly elderly) telling me about their various complaints…

Why yes they are salad tongs...

Why yes they are salad tongs…

I don’t know how many times I had to repeat “You should go and se your GP”

The worst bit is that they have Scissors... and razors… and god knows what else so there is literally no escape…

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I contemplated bolting for the door, but the lady with the leaky nipple and the scissors had some force over me, so I sucked it up like a (Wo)MAN and attempted to change the conversation to Kim Kasabain (Who is she??) or something from Love It magazine…

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So I’ve (again… for the 50th time) started eating healthily every day… Even a box of salad for lunch!

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Well it’s a good start…

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Until next time I leave you with this…

What did I… THEY fall on?

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To infinity and beyonnnddddddd